This is so moving and so righteously angry. And it is indeed a spiritual problem as well as a physical one. You want to express your soul. Most people can only perceive the reality of the body and, by extension, the ego.

I have my own theory about why there are so many gender transitions in this period of history and why there is so much discussion and controversy.

It's a little unorthodox, but here it is. I hope it is not offensive to any trans person- I would hate that.

If I need to be educated as a non-trans person, that is ok, please educate me if you think my theory is transphobic.

Here it is: I believe that humanity is going through a spiritual evolution and that human nature is changing dramatically. People wanting to express their subjectively-held gender identities are an aspect of this evolution. Many have chosen to incarnate at this time in order to help humans understand and respect people's spiritual and emotional identities, and to go beyond the physical and egotistical. I believe people like you are spiritual teachers for the rest of us who might arrogantly believe that what has always been socially acceptable must be true for all time.

It's an arduous undertaking and it makes life very, very difficult. But the rest of us must learn and be willing to hear different voices.

I think being a trans woman is the hardest of all conscious undertakings right now. I wish I could say something that would make it feel better or would give you hope of finding a loving partner after finally coming to express your inner reality and displaying it outwardly.

I wish you all joy possible.

And kudos to you for saying out loud what people don't want to hear: that male human nature tends to think of fuckability before anything else.

It's so limiting and actually sad.