This is a sad place to be. It’s hard when you had an inadequate mom. I know how that feels. I bought my mom a card two weeks ago and then somehow “forgot”to mail it to her.
I will call her and pretend we have a warm relationship.
She can’t see what she did wrong like so many narcissistic parents. Just like yours.

You should not have to make Mother’s Day plans for yourself. Just enjoy the day with your lovely daughter. Don’t overburden yourself.
Have a beautiful day tomorrow!