It’s good that you accept your body more and the idea that perfect bodies are rare. One thing disturbs me about this article, however. You mention “constant body shaming” from your boyfriends. Your tone seems to suggest that this is typical or normal. I am an average-looking woman in my sixties. As a young woman, I was considered pretty. I gained weight during my only pregnancy have been what society considers overweight mostly ever since. I have never once been body shamed by anyone. I had two bad marriages to men with difficult personalities. Neither one of them ever body shamed me; I would never have put up with it. Sometimes we teach people how to treat us. I now have a good husband who is far more attractive than I am. Needless to say, I still am not experiencing any body shaming. I hope that now you are more comfortable in your skin, you will attract a partner (if you want a partner) who sees your spiritual qualities instead of your physical flaws.